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Saturday, January 2nd, 2010
4:32 pm - 2009 Rewind
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?— Stood on a red carpet for a movie premiere, held a Tony award, and finally saw Phantom of the Opera!!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?— I don't think I officially made any, but I did join the gym and start dancing again, so that was progress!  This year I think I will resolve to be healthier in general.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?— My cousin Dan & Jen had a baby girl, Caroline!
4. Did anyone close to you die?— Not this year.
5. What countries did you visit?— CANADA, finally visited Montreal.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?— Will power to withstand peer pressure. haha. 
7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? - Feb. 20th, the day I officially began working out of the 1251 office.  September 27th, the day I turned 25!
8.What was your biggest failure?— I actually don't think I had any major failures this year, hard to believe I know.  I probably just can't think of it.
9.Did you suffer illness or injury?— luckily nothing major this year.
10.What was the best thing you bought?— Tickets to Lady Gaga!
11.Whose behavior merited celebration?— all of my friends. Because I love them and they keep me sane.
12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?-- I did have my fair share of crazy this year, but nothing worth dwelling on.
13. Where did most of your money go?— Cabs, Rental Cars, Bway Shows, Alcohol.
14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?— Seeing Lady Gaga, working in the Manhattan office, turning 25.
15. What song will always remind you of 2009?— "Empire State Of Mind" By Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys.
16. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?—  I'd say I'm very happy.
ii. thinner or fatter?— I think I am about the same, which is an improvement, haha.
iii. richer or poorer?— The same I think.
17.What do you wish you'd done more of?-- walking around the city.
18.What do you wish you'd done less of?— being lazy.
19. How will you be spending Christmas?— I spent it in Horseheads with my brothers and my parents! It was spectacular.
20. Did you fall in love in 2009?— with New York.
21. How many one-night stands?— "That's one secret I'll never tell..."
22. What was your favorite TV program?— Dexter and True Blood!
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?— Hating people takes a lot of effort, but I think its safe to say there are people in my life now that I could do without.
24. What was the best book you read?- The Women's Murder Club series.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?— Chester French and La Roux.
27.What did you want and not get?— I can't really think of anything major that I lacked this year.
28. What was your favorite film of this year?— The Hangover, Harry Potter 6.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?—   I turned 25 with a car bomb at Murphy's and then danced the night away at Turtle Bay.
30.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?— Again, I think this year was pretty awesome.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008--  Banana Republic, Express.
32. What kept you sane?-- my friends, my bro.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?— Cheyenne Jackson and Alexander Skarsgaard.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?— Marriage Equality
35. Who was the best new person you met?[or re-met]— Sarah A
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:  You can't fix stupid.
37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine, stars in our eyes cause we're having a good time, eh eh, so happy I could die."

current mood: content

(lookin on)

Friday, January 2nd, 2009
2:10 pm - 2008 was great, but 2009 will be fine!

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?— Moved to Spanish Harlem, affectionately referred to as SpaHa. :-)
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?— I didn't make any in 2008.  For this year, I may make a few.  Perhaps the generic lose some weight, and I think I need to start dancing again.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?— My cousin Colleen had a baby boy!
4. Did anyone close to you die?— My Aunt Mary Lou. <333
5. What countries did you visit?— Ohio (it might as well be a different country from NYC)
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?—  A little more determination towards things like the gym...
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? - March 17th - One of the most fun St. Patrick's Days I've ever had.  Hanging out in Brooklyn with my wife :-)      June 20th - the day my Aunt died.   July 1st - I officially become a Manhattanite!
8.What was your biggest failure?— Not getting out to Ohio in time to see my Aunt before she died.  I was afraid of what it would be like so I kept pushing it off, and then she died 6 hours before my plane left JFK...
9.Did you suffer illness or injury?— luckily nothing major this year.
10.What was the best thing you bought?— Perhaps tickets to The Bamboozle.  That was a great weekend :-)
11.Whose behavior merited celebration?— all of my friends. Because I love them and they keep me sane.
12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?-- There was one.  I shouldn't be surprised that it happened and I should be grateful when it comes down to it because it was just what I needed to FINALLY moveon.org
13. Where did most of your money go?— Concerts, moving to SpaHa, weddings, booze.
14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?— moving into Manhattan, two of my friends getting married, getting promoted.
15. What song will always remind you of 2008?— "Just Dance" by Lady Gaga
16. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?—  I'd say I'm very happy.
ii. thinner or fatter?— Fatter again.  Maybe next year I'll be able to say thinner... we'll see.
iii. richer or poorer?— Possibly richer but most likely the same.
17.What do you wish you'd done more of?-- visiting friends, being active in general.
18.What do you wish you'd done less of?— working 12 hours a day.
19. How will you be spending Christmas?— I spent it in NC at my sister's house with her fam & mom & dad.  It was the first Christmas in my 24 years that I did not spend in our house in Horseheads.
20. Did you fall in love in 2008?— Yes with Lady Gaga and Spanish Harlem!!!
21. How many one-night stands?— "That's one secret I'll never tell..."
22. What was your favorite TV program?— The two new ones this year were Lost and Gossip Girl
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?— I don't hate anyone, I strongly dislike Vanessa from GG though...
24. What was the best book you read?- Catch 22.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?— LADY GAGA (courtesy of Ed)!!! and Say Anything (courtesy of Kelly)
26.What did you want and get?— A new digital camera!
27.What did you want and not get?— A summer vacay at Ocean City. (note: this is two years running that this has been my answer.  I'd better fricken get to Ocean City MD this year!)
28. What was your favorite film of this year?— High School Musical 3... yeah, I said it.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?— I turned 24 (bitches!) and I had a party at Sin Sin, broke my shoe, ate some Pomme Frites, and had an awesome time :-)
30.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?— I wouldn't say "immeasurably" cause I'm pretty freaking happy, but I would've loved a trip to the beach...
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008--  Gap, Banana Republic
32. What kept you sane?-- my friends, my bro.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?— Wentworth Miller and Cheyenne Jackson.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?— Prop 8
35. Who was the best new person you met?[or re-met]— Sarah V, John S, Tom, Vicki, and Greg.
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:  Anything is possible at the Cozy Diner!
37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "Just dance, gonna be okay..."

current mood: happy

(lookin on)

Wednesday, June 25th, 2008
6:25 pm - For the Love...
 The Miracle Lady.

That's what my Aunt Mary Lou was nicknamed in her doctors office in Ohio.  She died last Friday after a long battle with cancer.  I think my cousin Debbie, her daughter, said it best when she said that now my Aunt's suffering is finally over and the rest of us just have to get through our pain.  I miss her so much.

A little over a month ago, the doctors told my Aunt that they were stopping her treatment, the chemo wasn't working.  When the doctors diagnosed her with cancer for the third time back in November, they told her that cancer should have killed her ten years ago.  She wasn't afraid to die.  She once told my Dad that she took every day as it came and was thankful for what she had.  So every day for the past ten years was a gift.

She was the best Aunt anyone could ever hope for.  She had so much love for us and was always so tolerant, especially with me who was a difficult child to say the least.  She fixed my Minkie, the raggedy thing that used to be a blanket that i still sleep with every night, until she literally couldn't sew any more thread to it.  She never teased me about getting rid of it either, even over Thanksgiving and Christmas last year when I had it home.  She put up with a very young me constantly trying to get a glimpse of her bald head the first time she had cancer.  She played ridiculous board games like Telephone Tag, Mall Madness, and Clarissa Explains It All for hours and I expect let me win too.  She used to let me put bows and clips and all sorts of things in her hair, and take pictures and do it all again.  When we would play Dominoes with the family she would make funny faces with me while we shuffled the dominoes, to the point where my Uncle Sonny would call us "pistachio" nuts.  She called me Sister Susie.  She used to poke fun with my Dad, and came up with the best practical joke I've ever heard of or witnessed to this day.

We were lucky to have her in our lives.  She loved us so much and I don't think we could have loved her more.  She was an amazing woman and she touched so many people.

I'm happy that she is no longer in pain, and is with my Uncle Sonny.  Now I just have to wait for my heart to stop hurting, and be thankful for all the wonderful memories I'm left with.

She was an extraordinary woman.  

I love you, Aunt Mary Lou. RIP.

current mood: sad

(she sings her song (1) | lookin on)

Sunday, June 1st, 2008
6:05 pm - "When you get to the end you start to realize what's important to you. Who really matters to you."
It's quickly coming up on a year since I moved to the city.  It seems with this year mark comes stresses and challenges I didn't think I'd have to face.

The most obvious I suppose is the decision to not renew the lease on the apartment.  I've known for about 5 months now that when the opportunity to move came I was going to take it.  I currently spend 20 hours a week going to and from work.  That's half of my supposed work week, and is ridiculous.  For that reason alone I am determined to move closer, which for me generally means Manhattan.  For me this really isn't a hard decision, I mean I love our apt. and the area and the fact that Jordan is so close, but in the end I have to think about myself.  And I'm sick of coming home from work tired/aggravated/upset mostly because of the damn commute.  I don't feel like myself, even if we go out and do something in Manhattan after work, as soon as it gets late enough all I can think about is the fact that I'm only going to get about 4 or so hours of sleep before I have to get up and get ready to leave for work and then I get in a bad mood.  It's maddening, and it's not fair to Kristen or whoever we're with.  The problem is Kristen really really likes it here, and doesn't want to leave or spend more money, which we would inevitably have to in Manhattan.  We both agree we have to sit down and talk about it, and neither of us really wants to lose the other as a roommate since I know this has been the best living situation I've ever been in with someone who isn't my family.  There is the possibility that we could live with other people to try and bring the rent cost down, but I'm worried that throwing anyone else into the mix is just going to throw off the nice living balance we have.  I'm not sure.  Bottom line, I am moving closer to work.  I guess we'll just have to see how the logistics pan out.

On the boy front, there's really not much to tell.  Millions of people in New York and I really haven't met much of anyone that could be considered boyfriend potential.  I guess that's to be somewhat expected when you work almost 10 hour days on a somewhat regular basis.  Not that I need a man in my life, lord knows that is not the case, but still it would be nice to have something to show for my year of being here other than a few phone numbers I'll never use and an ex that I continually allow to mess with my head.  The ex is no onenew, he entered my life when I was 16 and hasn't ever truly left since.  Earlier this year he earned the nickname SOFT (thanks Jordan!) and those closest to me know what it stands for.  But here it is June and I haven't talked to him, truly talked to him, since his birthday on February 11th.  If you want to know why you'll have to ask him, because I honestly haven't a clue.  For a while I just took it in stride, we tend to go through these phases where he disappears and then a few months later I'll get a random text and we'll start talking again.  I don't know that it's ever been this long though, maybe when we were broken up and dating other people in college, but even then we'd have a random conversation every now and then.  It would be misleading of me to say that I think about him all the time.  I don't, my life here is busy and I have plenty of things on my mind at all times that I'm not sitting around pining for him.  Not the pathetic lump I was a year ago when we were in this phase.  But still, it's just bizarre, and part of me wishes I could just let go of it all completely.  I did call him today, I figured if he answered and had time maybe this time I'd start us talking again.  But he didn't and I didn't leave a message, because I guess I was really just calling to say hi.  Most likely he won't call me back.  I'm not expecting him to, anyway.  I suppose this is the part where someone tells me he's just not that into me.

It's been 8 months since my Aunt was diagnosed with cancer for the third time in her life.  I guess when they gave her the results back in November they gave her 8 to 12 months to live.  Now that we're at the 8 month mark they've stopped giving her chemo, as her cancer has spread to her pelvic bone and her thighs.  At this point they're just going to keep giving her medication for the pain, and in a few weeks all she'll really do is sleep most of the time.  My mom says she has a hospital bed in her living room, but that she is still very lucid and talks and laughs an everything.  Mom told me a week ago that they don't think she has much longer to go.  Against my better judgement I have gone on to block my feelings about this.  I guess you could say I'm in denial.  I generally try not to think about it and it hasn't really set in that she's really going.  I'm trying to get the courage to fly out there and see her some weekend when my mom is out ther too.  A big part of me really wants to be able to say goodbye, something I didn't do with my Uncle.  The thought of it really scares me, but I don't want the same thing to happen with her that I let happen with my Uncle.  While his death was a complete surprise to us all, I could've been there the weekend before he had the heart attack.  Instead I chose to be at school with my friends.  I don't want that to be the case with her.  I feel like I owe it to the both of them to say goodbye.  I'm just really really bad with goodbyes.  I don't know what to do.  

I guess that's all for now.  I suppose it's enough.

current mood: gloomy

(lookin on)

Sunday, January 13th, 2008
11:50 am - Random Thoughts
 The new American Gladiators show is freaking amazing.  I had forgotten how much I enjoyed watching that show as a kid, but I have to admit watching it now with a group of people every Monday night is just spectacular.  It definitely gives me something to look forward to every Monday (while Prison Break is still not on, of course).  Wolf is probably our favorite gladiator, if for no other reason than he's just absolutely ridiculous and amazing. Loves it.

This weekend was a lot of fun.  We went up to New Rochelle on Friday for three of my co-workers house warming party.  It was great, they had Keystone Light and Kristen and I got really excited, to which everyone looked at us weird.  It was fun to play beer pong and flip cup since we really haven't done that in a long time. And their new place is really nice.  They have a pretty sweet view of the Long Island Sound.

Yesterday we went in to Manhattan to this bar called Tortilla Flats, which I guess is where the guy from the Dell commercials (Dude! You got a Dell!) works now.  He wasn't there last night, but we still had a blast.  It's a cute little place.

Upcoming events: Alex will be returning to the city next weekend for a few days, so it will be nice to meet up with him.  Then the next weekend is Australia Day, aka Kristen and my "wedding" haha.  We have a few people who may come visit for that wonderfulness, it should be an exciting weekend.

current mood: calm

(she sings her song (1) | lookin on)

Friday, December 28th, 2007
9:08 pm - A look back at 2007, and looking forward to 2008.
 1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?— Graduated from college, got a full time job and moved to Brooklyn (and all that comes with it!)
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?— I made a secret resolution to myself last year, and by golly I kept it!  This year, I don't believe I will make any.  I'm far to happy.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?— Not this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?— Nope.
5. What countries did you visit?— Didn't leave the ol' US this year.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?—  Um, I'm pretty content with life right now.  2007 was a spectacular year, I can't really think of anything I lacked.
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? - Graduation, duh, and July 31st when I had my "new kid" orientation for Avon and came out of the subway and realized headquarters was across the street from Radio City.  *sigh*
8.What was your biggest failure?— Stressing out so much about not having a job right out of school.  Looking back I still would have been stressed, but I wish I could've relaxed a little more.
9.Did you suffer illness or injury?— I fell down the subway steps, (insert your laughter here), and my left leg is still bruised and bumpy from it. (this happened a good month ago).
10.What was the best thing you bought?— Technically I didn't buy it... but I would say Apt. 2R on 19th St.!!!
11.Whose behavior merited celebration?— all of my friends. Because I love them and they keep me sane.
12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?-- Uh, I can't really think of anything along those lines.
13. Where did most of your money go?— Booze, NYC, moving, Brooklyn apt. ness.
14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?— getting a job with Avon, moving to the CITY!
15. What song will always remind you of 2007?— "One and Only" by Timbaland Ft. Fall Out Boy
16. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?—  I was pretty happy last year, but I can't imagine being happier with life than I am now.
ii. thinner or fatter?— Probably fatter, but it's all good.
iii. richer or poorer?— Definitely richer, three cheers for being a working girl!
17.What do you wish you'd done more of?-- Just chillin this summer, hanging with friends and whatnot.
18.What do you wish you'd done less of?— worrying about my future.
19. How will you be spending Christmas?— I spent it Arctic Leaguing in the morning, with Clint, Mom, Dad, Mike, and Aunt Mary Lou during the day, and then with TMY and family in the evening.
20. Did you fall in love in 2007?— With NYC, Brooklyn, and Life?! HELL YES!
21. How many one-night stands?— Zero.
22. What was your favorite TV program?— The Office, Prison Break, House, Bravo Reality TV, Supernatural.
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?— hate is a tad strong, and I haven’t formed any new enemies to my knowledge.
24. What was the best book you read?- Any Stephanie Plum book.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?— The Audition, Plain White T's.
26.What did you want and get?— A job in NYC and to live with Kiki!
27.What did you want and not get?— A summer vacay at Ocean City.
28. What was your favorite film of this year?— Surf's Up.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?— I turned 23, and it happened to be the same day as our office tail gate party so I spent my day drinking with my co workers.  Then Kristen and I had Pam Thai for dinner!
30.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?— I wouldn't say "immeasurably" cause I'm pretty freaking happy, but I would've loved a trip to the beach...
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?--  Gap, Banana Republic
32. What kept you sane?-- my friends, my bro.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?— Wentworth Miller and Cheyenne Jackson.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?— I don't get stirred by politics.
35. Who was the best new person you met?[or re-met]— The Clifton Place ladies, my Avon co-workers, Bizzy, Rory, and the rest of the Brooklyn crew.
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: “Anything can happen if you let it"
37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "Hey castle builder, want the moon and nothing less? Work for years then overnight success, I know firsthand, only in New York"

current mood: happy

(lookin on)

Tuesday, November 20th, 2007
10:46 pm - new year, new circumstances... same old story.

I haven't had many moments of self reflection here.  Not like I used to, especially last year at school.  I guess that's to be expected though.  Last year I was facing the end of a period of my life and I had no idea what the future was going to be like.  Now I'm living my dream with my best friend in the greatest city ever with a great job.

There are some things that just don't change though.

For instance, Thanksgiving break has always been one that I've looked forward to.  When I was still in school, by this time I was so ready for the first semester and those classes to be over that I welcomed the break from it all.  It also was usually the first time that all of us crazy Horseheads kids were back in town at the same time.  That's not much different from now.  I'm still very much looking forward to it, I haven't been home since Labor Day and I can't wait to see everyone that will be there.  Also, around this time I would always being staying up super late doing last minute things for classes before I left for break.  Lately I've been working later simply because of 4th quarter craziness, but still it's interesting that this always seems to be my busy season.  Me and the whole world, right?

I happened upon my old LJ and my entry from this time last year.  I had just broken up with my boyfriend (read: the smartest thing I ever did, haha).  That story still makes me smirk a little, oh man.  There was another part to my entry last year that I had forgotten about.  I was afraid that Thanksgiving wouldn't be the happy holiday it had always been for me.  It was the first holiday I had celebrated since my uncle died, and he and my aunt always came to our house for Thanksgiving.  It ended up being fine, not as sad as I had feared it might be, which is good.  The fact that I was afraid last year though shook me a little.  Mostly because  now I find I'm once again a little afraid of what is to come...

My aunt has cancer.  This is round number three for her, and two weeks ago she found out she has a year to live.  I'm trying to be strong, but even typing that last sentence... 

I just, I can't dwell.  We will have a good holiday.  I have to believe that.

(lookin on)

Sunday, November 18th, 2007
9:34 pm - In Five Hundred Twenty Five Thousand Six Hundred Minutes...

How do you figure a last year on earth?

Figure in love.

(lookin on)

Monday, October 15th, 2007
6:26 pm - And happiness is coming home again...

This past weekend was SU's Homecoming.  I went up on Thursday evening to catch the Homecoming Showcase, which I'm very glad I did.  As expected, my DanceWorks/T.A.P. loves were very impressive, and Kalabash and Black Reign were awesome.  Overall the show was very well done!  

I got to see a lot of 2007ers out for Happy Hour on Friday, and I have to say I do kind of miss the craziness that is happy hour on the hill.  This weekend proved to me that I'm not quite the alcoholic I once was.  I can't remember the last time I drank three nights in a row, and I'm somewhat hurtin from it, haha!  OH, I also got to tag team a tour with Steve!  It was really strange how it all came back to me like I never left.  Even though it was a special group (gag me) I actually enjoyed myself.

I got to spend some quality time with the deltasigs as well, which as always was good times.  Stephy had a party Saturday night so I was able to see a lot of the younger brothers.  I love that I can come back and not feel out of place with them.  My brothers are just that cool.

Overall it was a great weekend.  I feel like I'm in a good place, because I love my life here in Brooklyn and my job and everything, but it's nice to know that every now and then I can go back to SU and not feel above it or like I can't just have as much fun as I did when I was there.  I'm lucky I think, because I know it isn't like that for a lot of people who graduate.  I think I owe it to my amazing group of friends.  Thanks again to 119 and 411 for letting me crash and everything.  I love you girls!!

current mood: content

(lookin on)

Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
2:12 pm
 Almost two months since my last update, oh where to begin...

I guess for starters, that 2BR apartment in Sunset Park that I was gushing about in my last entry didn't pan out.  The short version of the story is that the landlord on that apartment sucked and we wouldn't have been able to move in until the 15th of August, which we didn't even find out until we were already living in Alyssa's living room in Bed-Stuy and had started our jobs.  So we ended up in a smaller 2BR apartment in South Slope and really it couldn't have worked out better.  This apartment, while smaller than the other one, is still a pretty nice size for the two of us and we've made it cozy with pictures and broadway posters everywhere.  It's a lot cheaper than the other one AND all utilities except for electric are included in the rent.  We're also a good 20 minutes closer to the city, which makes my commute to work only an hour and a half.

Which brings me to work, I've been there oficially for a month now and I really really enjoy it.  The people that I work with are nice and a lot of fun (even if the majority of them are from Penn State, hah!).  I currently have five of my own planner codes and so far haven't messed anything up too badly.  I'm really glad I took this job.

So life in the 'real world' is not nearly as terrible and scary as I dreaded it would be throughout my senior year of college.  Granted, during the week I'm usually in bed not much later than 11pm and I wake up at 5am every morning, but I like going to work so I don't really mind having to get up.  About once a week Kristen and I do something theatre related after work which is always exciting.  And sometimes we just go out to eat or go to the park near our apartment or stoop sit etc.  While lately it's become more bitter-sweet to be out of college, especially with everyone back at SU and even Kelly and Rosie being back at their respective colleges, I'm still really enjoying my life where it is.  I mean when ya get right down to it, how many people can say that they are living out the dream they created when they were a freshman in high school?  Even more than that, how many can say they did it all with their best friend?  We constantly remind ourselves how lucky we are and how unbelievable it is that we made it.  I mean, every morning when I go to work I can see the Statue of Liberty as I cross the Manhattan Bridge. How cool is that?!

This weekend I'm back in Horseheads.  Miss Katie Trexler is now Mrs. Katie Hicks!  The wedding was yesterday and it was a really nice ceremony and Katie looked beautiful!  The reception was at the Hill Top, which happens to have a view of Elmira that actually makes it look like a nice place, haha.  I'm really glad that I was able to come back for it, and it's nice to be home.  I appreciate this place more and more the longer I'm away from it and the more time I spend in the city.  I love living in Brooklyn and obviously I love Manhattan, but it is nice to come back here and see the hills and the small town and everything.  It really is home sweet Horseheads!

I guess that about sums up what I've been doing.  Move, Work, Broadway. haha. Love it!

current mood: content

(lookin on)

Sunday, July 15th, 2007
8:38 pm - Baby born with two heads, must be from Brooklyn.

In a very short time I will be occupying a brand new 2BR apartment in Sunset Park, Brooklyn with Kristen! YaY! I'm so excited because after two days of looking we finally found a great apartment in a good neighborhood.  For what we're paying we are getting a great deal!  My bedroom has a bathroom in it, and Kristen's bedroom leads out to our backyard/porch area.  We have space for a living room AND a dining area across from the full kitchen, and then there's another bathroom in the hall.  I never expected our first city apartment to be this nice, eeek!!! I'll definately be taking pics once we move in.

The only real drawback is that we technically can't take possesion of it until Aug 1st, which would be the Wednesday after we start our jobs.  Oh yeah... KRISTEN GOT A JOB! haha.  She's going to be the account coordinator for Spotco, which is a theatrical advertising company.  Hello, dream job! I can't believe we're finally moving down there and working just like we always planned.  It's still so unreal!

It's actually funny how it finally hit Kristen and I for the first time.  Ever since we saw Wicked that first winter break of college we would play 'One Short Day' as like our theme song when we were coming into the city.  So neither of us had listened to Wicked in a while so on our way down this last time we popped it in and 'One Short Day' happened to come on as we were driving through China Town.  In the part of the song where it goes "So I'll be back for good someday to make my life and make my way..." Kristen was like OMG that's us!!! and I was like oh yeah haha.  So then the song goes on and they sing "Where so many roam to, we'll call it home too" and then I hit Kristen's arm and was like OMG it really is us! And right after that they sing "And then just like now we can say we're just two friends, two good friends, two best friends..." and both of us started crying!! It hadn't really hit us until that moment that we were actually doing it, and Kristen pretty much never cries so that's how big of a moment that was. haha, thank you Wicked.

So yay for jobs and places to live! :-)

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Monday, July 2nd, 2007
12:18 pm - Manhattan, I prepared for you..

I got the Avon job!!!!!!

I formally accepted the offer today but I've known that I've had it since Thursday morning. I'm so excited, I'm actually going to live in NYC!!  And I'm actually going to be doing a supply chain management job!!

I start July 30th, which means I now have 28 days to find an apartment and do all that stuff.  Finally my life is going where I want it to, I love it!

just a small town girl with big city dreams. that's been my quote forever.  and now its coming true :-)

current mood: ecstatic

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Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
2:05 pm - Shout Hooray and Halleluh!
Yesterday I had an interview with Avon for a deployment analyst position in their Rye, NY office, which is only a 40 minute metro north ride away from NYC!!!  It went really well, I talked to three managers and the recruiter who had set up the interviews.  Then I got to speak with some of the people who are doing the DA job right now and they showed me kind of what they do and talked to me about their experiences relocating to the city and everything, it was great!  It's kinda funny, apparently they recruit directly out of the penn state supply chain program (cause its good or something?) and so of the people who work in the department i would be joining only one of them didn't go to psu!  But, none of the four people they were interviewing are penn staters so i guess they're trying to branch out.  

The building was pretty sweet as well.  apparently there is a workout facility (we didn't see it just heard about it) and they have an avon store (which would be dangerous, very dangerous) and a nice cafeteria.  But now all I get to do is play the waiting game.  Oh well, cross your fingers for me! :-)

current mood: excited

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Saturday, June 16th, 2007
4:35 pm - Scatterbrained
I may have another interview the last week in June.  Avon called about a job I applied to like a month ago, but it sounds like it could be really interesting.  It's in Rye, NY and apparently there's a train that goes from NYC to there and even stops in their office parking lot and a lot of their supply chain staff commute from the city.  I already had a phone interview with them and they're scheduling a time when I can go to their facility and meet the people in the program I would be entering and whatnot.  Always good to have options, so I'm excited about it.

We went to retro night on Thursday.  Rosie met us there with people that she works with at the mog, and we got to meet the new employees from Kosovo.  They all seemed pretty fun, although I think they were slightly overwhelmed by the wonder that is retro night at tags, haha.  But apparently we left an impression on them and we've been invited to hang out with them this weekend.  We'll see what happens I guess!

My dad and I hung up all of my framed playbills yesterday finally.  I only had the five from the first year up, so we had 11 more to hang!  I love how wonderfully B'way the one half of my room is now. It's pretty fabulous.  The only bad thing is now I have even less insentive to leave my room.  My parents probably think I sleep all day cause I'd just assume be up here.  Ah well.

Huh. I just looked out my window and i can see a blue jay.  Is that bad or good luck?  I can't remember.  Meh.

I am so mellow lately... I need to stop listening to Spring Awakening on repeat. haha

current mood: mellow

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Thursday, June 7th, 2007
5:09 pm - Take me to Bright Lights, Big City...

Latest trip to NYC was phenominal!  The interviews went really well, both of the places want me to set up a second one later in July, Kristen too!  We also went to Stars in the Alley and got student rush tickets for Spring Awakening.  We saw Kevin Spacey at Stars in the Alley and got some fun rediculous free stuff (that we didn't get last time because we were shoved up in the front).  Spring Awakening was beyond amazing.  It was different than I was expecting, I didn't realize it was so dark, but I have to admit that I enjoyed it even though I usually prefer ones that are more happy go lucky.

We stayed with Alyssa at her house in Brooklyn and it was so cute!  Her roommates are super nice and really helped us out a lot, figuring out where we needed to go for interviews and pointing us in the right direction for when we have to start looking for a place to live.  We went out with them on Tuesday night to Sputnik for kareoke which was a lot of fun.  I can't remember the last time I sang that much in public... thank goodness for alcohol!

Overall it was an amazing trip as always.  For the first time though I actually feel like I can really get a job and make it in the city.  It's a great feeling.

current mood: accomplished

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Sunday, June 3rd, 2007
9:06 pm - Party like a ROCkstar...
This weekend was grrreat! Kristen and I went up to Rochester to visit Jill and see some MTCers in ShowBoat on Friday.  The show was soo long and kinda slow (sadly I'd never seen it, I know I know...) but the MTCers were awesome in it and I'm glad I went.  Rosie came up after work and we all went out after the show to the Old Toad.  It was fun, they have amazing long island iceteas there!! Sooo delicious.  After being out we went to Tahoe's and I had my first Garbage Plate ever! I thought it was pretty good, I'm not sure if it was because I was a little intoxicated or because it really was. oh well!

Saturday Kristen Rosie and I worked the prize table at the Saint Mary's festival.  I came home with a fabulous set of hick-teeth.  We contemplated wearing them over to Rosars, since no one would probably notice a difference in there, haha.  Good times!

So tomorrow evening after dinner Kristen and I head down to the city! I'm so excited!! I got a new skirt suit today which will be a lot nicer than the full suit i have, especially if its muggy or something.  I think I'm probably more excited about Stars In the Alley and possibly seeing Spring Awakening than I am about the interviews... oops! haha. Ah well, as per usual I'm sure it'll be a great visit to the city.

current mood: happy

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Thursday, May 31st, 2007
6:50 pm - Lightness

After a run and and a convo with both of my parents, we all finally understand each other and i think things are ok.

some very good news: i have two interviews in NYC on tuesday!!! one is with 90 ten marketing management in Flushing (Queens) and the other is with Focus Marketing in Great Neck (Long Island). Kristen has the same interview with Focus Marketing in the time slot before me too, which is SO exciting!!

And tonight is Thursday, during summer, in Horseheads... which could only mean that its time for Retro Night!! Oh yeah, and the newly installed Champagne Thursday :-)



ps. i am in love with the new maroon 5 album!

current mood: excited

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Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
7:22 pm - Nothing lasts forever
I thought my parents had been being really cool with how things have been for me lately.  I know i've kind of been a waste of life, I'm not working and I don't do a whole lot of productive things throughout the days.  They haven't really seemed to mind, and I thought it was cool of them to just kind of let me have this time to be a waste of life.  After four years of hard work I thought maybe I deserved it.  It was nice to only do things I have wanted to do for the past few weeks, since really my whole life has been doing things that they've wanted me to do.  Guess i was wrong.

I wanted to head up to Syracuse tonight because I still have some stuff in the apartment that I couldn't fit in the car the last time I was up there, and Laura's up there until tomorrow early afternoon before she has to head to the mountains of West Virginia.  So while I know that I have been in Rochester and all over the place lately I asked my mom if she'd care if i went up to Syracuse tonight and she gave me this whole sigh and be pissy routine.  Apparently my dad went off on her yesterday because i've been a 'waste of life' lately and blah blah blah.  Which pisses me off in itself because if he's really got a problem with the way i'm living my life he should fucking speak up to me and not to my mom, because she just listens and doesn't do anything but it slowly builds up inside of her and before i knew it that would've all come out on me ten fold.  whatever. i can't wait to get out of here.

i just applied to a bunch of random jobs in NYC, some of which start sooner than i would have liked, since kristen and i had pretty much decided to wait until the fall to try to head down, but if i have to go sooner to get rid of this bullshit my parents come up with then so be it.

I guess tomorrow i'm gonna go around town and look for any part time job. maybe harris hill is hiring, working there could be cool, at least it'd be a change.  if i don't come up with any possibilities tomorrow i guess i'll just go back to the gap.  i REALLY don't want to be there but at least its something.  at this point i'd rather have a job i hate if it gets my parents off my back.  i can always looks for other jobs while i'm back there and just change my availability if needed.

whatever, they have no idea what it feels like to have a degree and no job.  it sucks, and its always there in the back of my mind. its like constant anxiety that my life is going nowhere. thanks for not understanding.

current mood: pissed off

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
7:57 pm - Shit happens when you party naked
So the past three days have been pretty awesome.  Sunday Kelly, Rosie, Cousin Steve, and me all went up to hang out at Dave's townhouse in rochester.  His place is sooo nice and it's actually pretty big, I couldn't imagine living there by myself but I guess it suits him.  We had a late night cookout and found ourselves drunkenly wandering the rochester beach at 2am, hah!  We hung out for a while in one of the pavilions, where kelly and i will live on forever thanks to some sweet graffiti-ing.

Then yesterday was memorial day, so we all watched the horseheads parade which sadly really just defines our town in about an hour. oh lord.  then we came back here and had a cookout with my neighbors, complete with games of knock out, volleyball, kickball and wiffleball.  then very out of nowhere Kelly came across two free tickets to the Fall Out Boy concert at Darien Lake that night, so her and i left for that and made it just in time to see them.  we actually had awesome seats, got some great pictures although i wasn't fast enough to get one of Pete taking off his clothes. damn. anyway, it was a really great show, and i don't know where i had heard that fall out boy wasn't good live but i thought they were amazing.  OH man, they sang "beat it" by MJ and i about died.  it was really funny because kelly and i and a few other people were singing and then all the fourteen year olds had no clue. which is sad, because everyone should be aware of the awesomeness that was Michael Jackson in the 80's.  Also, they sang their part to "one and only" which is the song they have with timbaland, and i think kelly and i were the only two people in the crowd that had any idea what that was too, but i was excited.

Kelly and I stayed at her friend Katie's house in Rochester that night and today we went back to the beach and had lunch, walked in the sand and stuck our feet in the lake, and got ice cream.  it was fabulous.

YaY for a great three days. here's hoping they continue :-)

current mood: happy

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Sunday, May 27th, 2007
1:04 pm - Perhaps I jumped to conclusions?

okay, after i had some time to relax a little bit and even confer with my girlfriend, i realized that maybe i just jumped to conclusions and it's not what it looks like. although it did kind of look like things you and i would be doing. but, girlfriend and i were in agreeance that she looks like sloth from the goonies, seriously. so if that's really what you're doing, i'm not sure i can even bring myself to be jealous of that. so have fun, and hopefully come to your senses soon. k, thanks.

current mood: whatever

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